The following are various jobs I worked at during thirty-eight years of my life. As a young child I did a lot of favours for my mother by helping her friends’ clean their windows, go-for errands to the store, go-for this and go-for that, essentially a gofer for everyone. By doing these things, it would put a smile on mother’s face which brought a smile to mine at the same time. Here is a fast run down of my story; I started in dry cleaning, moved to grocery delivery on bicycle, sold Sunday newspapers on a street corner then moved into full delivery with my own routes going door-to-door and having customers. I worked for Loss Prevention in retail arresting people, sided houses, roofed roofs, washed dishes, pumped gas, and was an Altar Boy in a Catholic church. I have slung beer, worked retail, sold all kinds of merchandise, served food, I have been involved with guns and drugs and drank alcohol for forty years. In a brief explanation it would go something like this; “I have framed houses, sided houses, have roofed roofs, I have cleaned skyscraper windows in Vancouver and I have dug ditches in Montreal. I have been married, owned a home, worked for whoever I wanted, made as much money as I wanted to, went anywhere I wanted to go, ate whatever I wanted at any time, drank whenever I chose to drink, take drugs whenever I wanted, I worked for whoever would pay me and I quit on any boss I was pissed off with. During that thirty-eight years of work I had two ten year careers. One was in Loss Prevention and one was in the Gambling industry. I have enjoyed a life in which I lived alone in the silence of darkness. Now I have a goal and I have a company which I have become a public speaker inspiring and motivating individuals to empower themselves to never give up and keep driving forward with any decision to move forward. Reach for the help and ask instead of going it alone
A New beginning starts each new day. Whatever happened yesterday, and whatever happens tomorrow, is besides the importance of today, the only day that is in front of your eyes. Accomplishments happen according to the desires of the student and can only happen when the time is right, which is never known by the teacher. Remember!, only when the student is ready can the proper teacher appear. When the teacher becomes Christ, the word found is in Jesus, and the Holy Spirit is in the witness.
A new beginning starts in the human heart, needing the desire to control itself. Trust can only be found in love, and love can only be found in God. When a friend is not trusted, a brother cannot be loved, because love and friendship are of equal value.
I was not raised knowing what a choice looked like. The only choice I knew of was “this” or “that” and that was more than a lot of people. When I turned three years of age, my two older sisters, my mother and father and had moved into our grandparents home in Saskatoon. These folks were my father’s parents, who lived in a two bedroom house with an outhouse at the back of the property about 100 feet from the back door of the house. I remember there was no room for me to sleep and ended up sleeping in a bed made for me in the bathtub. My mother was pregnant and we moved there for my mother to have some help from my father’s mother. I became very ill with Pneumonia and ended up in the hospital at the same time my mom was having my baby brother in June 1959. After being in the hospital a couple of days, I contracted the Measles and ended up with a temperature raising to 106 degrees and being put into an oxygen tent so I could breath. My parents came to see me but could not touch me. They had to dress in protective clothing, put their hands into the gloves and touched me while I was in an incubator tent. The hospital had to call in a Catholic priest to administer my last rights because they did not know if I would live or if I would die a young death. I remember one time my parents brought me a present and it was a clown with plastic donuts stacked five high. To this day, I have a beautiful clown collection and it all started back in 1965 when I was only ten years of age I and started with with three drawings. In my later years of life, my friend/brother/neighbour for many years, would go to garage sales throughout Calgary on a weekly basis and purchase unique one-of-a-kind clowns and give them to me whenever we met together. I have focused on each one and think that I was one of those clowns at least one time in my life.
Today is a new day and is the first day for the rest of your life. And when you awake the following day, that will be the first day for the rest of your life and every day thereafter will be the first day for the rest of your life. Each morning is a new day to do anything you want to do and could be the day that changed your life. All days are new days and are for you to enjoy to the best of your ability. Each day does not offer you peace but each day is a day to rejoice. You woke up, you touched the floor, you walked and talked, you sneezed, you got to do whatever you wanted to do and still live to see another day. Always remember, how you start your day will finish the same way. Peace rests in the eye of the beholder. Make for a great day every one.
One day I was thinking about the first man who was created in the beginning. His name was Adam which means Man of the earth OR earthly man. It is written that God our creator, created this man from dust that every other man will walk on. Adam was given everything he desired in the Garden of Edan.
One day either Adam or our creator asked this question,”why am I so unhappy and empty, with everything you have given to me”, or “Adam, why do you look so sad”
Later on that evening when Adam fell asleep, our Creator took one of Adams’ ribs and created what He thought Adam needed, and A WOMAN was created. God was happy with himself.
Adam awoke from his sleep and was surprised with Gods’ gift to him. The name of Eve was given to her.Our creator looked upon them and made this statement, “You can have everything in this garden, except for this one tree of knowledge”.Everything else is here for your conveniencee and pleasure.Adam seemed please with his new gift. They talked, played, shared, and enjoyed each others company. All was good in the garden.
One day Eve picked an apple off the tyree of knowledge without Adam knowing. She then suggested adam take a bite. Adam said at first, but gave in and took a bite. God was angry.
Living with this, is a surprise every day and every hour at times. It is a mystery to what will happen next time something needs to be done. Plans are meant to be broken when dealing with M.S. Why I say this, is because by the time whatever you want to do is going to happen, the energy level is depleted, and you might have to leave it until another time. There are times when everything needs to be planned before it is excecuted. And sometimes the plans are forgotten and the idea must be thought about once again. If the plans are forgotten, something else happens. This is how confusing M.S. can be at times.
I have been under Doctors care since 2003 after being admitted to the hospital for 68 days. The hospital filled out all the paper work and said to me, sign here and sign there, until I felt like a famious person. I stopped reading because I was overwhelmed. By the time I was at home, I was on A.I.S.H.(Assured Income for the Severly Handi-capped. This was great support for medical benefits. All was good until the A.I.S.H worker cut me off on October 1,2011, after 81/2 years. I have two diseases that there is no cure, and I decided not to appeal until recently. One of my medical difficulties needs medication like I was taking for 81/2 years. I need help and I am lost for what my next move might be. Stay tuned for progress.